Wednesday, July 8, 2009

It just keeps tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down.

This is really starting to be the worst week ever. My wife and I have come to the conclusion that we can't afford to continue to live where we are now. I do not make enough money to support us, and she can't find a job. We're always behind on our rent and our bills, and my apartment doesn't fuck around when it comes to late rent. For the past three months we've had letters threatening eviction if we can't come up with the rent, and somehow we've begged or borrowed enough from friends, family, or the state to continue to live at our apartment. I think this time is the end. I don't know if we can make it this month. We need $500.00 by tomorrow night and they won't file for eviction. We have $15.00 to our name. We don't see any choice but to try and find somewhere more affordable.

I'm so stressed out I can barely think. I'm at the point where everything seems so overwhelming and scary that I can't even begin to know where to start and how to get out of this mess, short of buying a bunch of lottery tickets and praying to whatever cosmic force wants to listen.

I feel like a failure of the grandest sort.


  1. Oh, honey, I'm so sorry. Life does get so unnecessarily difficult sometimes. Do you have any family you can stay with temporarily until you get back on your feet, or until your wife finds a job? It might sting, but it's only temporary... I wish I could do something that would *actually* help you! My thoughts are with you, at least... fingers crossed and all that.

  2. It looks like we're going to borrow some more money for now, to at least make it another month. If we weren't able to do that we were going to probably move in with my birthmom for a time until we could figure out what was going on. Thanks for the kind thoughts, though...I am so stressed out it is ridiculous.

  3. Buddy, best of luck. My wife and I had to live with her parents for half a year once, talk about stress :( I ended up driving pizza just to make enough money to run away. Keep your head up, shit will get better!

  4. best of luck - it's no much better this side of the pond looking for work - bollocks to the bankers, i say!